hhiiiiiiii ... heeellooo so I guess there's this new cult out there called fAceBoOk.. ihave so far refused to join it.. seeing how i refer to it as a cult.. .. no thanks.. none for me.. i'm sure i'm part of too many and i don't even know it... hmm

uumm.... it's March 1st and I'm praying for spring. today i almost died! Literally i was driving from bridgeport exit to king st.. and i was blind couldn't see anything when i was driving.. i thought.. this is it.. i'm gonna get in an accident.  but ididn't.. i had a huge panic attack though when i finally pulled into future shop parking lot.  pheeww glad that's over.. =) i guessi should explain that's it's snowing like mad

I'm going back to school in the fall.. for Child, youth and family.. bachelor of applied science at guelph uni.  that's if i'm accepted.  It's four years.. llonng years .  then in the spring i'm getting married.. WHAT!! me?  yeah it's pretty sweet.. i'm glad it's next spring though.. lots of time to.. do whatever you do before you get married like.. prepare.. haha.  some say it's the hardest thing they ever did.. and how it's a lot of work but worth it.  is this true all you married people??? feel free to give me any advice..! =)

anyways that's all thats new with me.. oh ya HAITI was AWESOME>. amazing life changing.. i should work on that life change though but .. i would do it again any day.. ithink africa is the next trip maybe next summer...

thats all right..

later

wow... so it's been awhile.  quick update.. I've moved into a townhouse with two of my friends.. courtney and jenn.. and in two days I'm going to Haiti with a medical team through a church in waterloo.. that i don't go to.. =).. we're going for two and a half weeks.. i can't wait.. it's gonna be a crazy experience.  we're doing nine clinics there in different villages and towns.. and bringing a crap load of medications and supplies with us.  the only thing i'm nervous about is the team.. i'm kind of struggling with actually being myself.. but i hope that nervousness wears off and i just let go... i've been to worried about what they'll thiink since i'm the age of most of their daughters.  Anyways ... thats it for me... !!!!!!! lata all

i'm getting a giant needle tomorrow in my knee... and i'm .. a little nervous.  I know that i have lots of piercings but that pain is all in my control.. this whole giant needle thing.. i'm not okay with.  they say it's hurts after.. more than before cause the steroid crystallizes in the knee.. what does that mean?  i can't move... uggh... i feel sick thinking of it.  but i'll be strong and hold my hands while i'm stabbed by the man.. haha.  peaceout all you people who ... have normal knees.. be thankful! lol

 i was walking home from the hairdresser this morning and... my heart all of a sudden felt lighter..like it wasn't being dragged or tossed around.  I realized that I was and am still needing to give all of what was going on in my life to God and saying to him... "take it all!!".  i have a tendency to hold everything to myself.. and keep picking things up and running.. but i probably drop something every two steps.  i've felt like my arms are full and God is standing right there with so much room to help me carry ... life.  so from now on i will remember this everyday if not a million times a day.  not to the point where i'm carefree.. not saying i can't handle anything.. but just knowing that with God walking beside me helping me.. i'm ...

i'm.... able to focus and live.. and i can't think of the words i want to say.  i just know that this is how it has to be always..